i know i promised you guyz that i would start a blog on this challenge of "365 Days of God's LOVE". due to graduate applications, projects from my graduate class and some other daily routines in my life, i never got a chance to create a blog on this. since some of you guyz been anxious about it, i've decided to just post it on my current blog with a lot of my previous entries put on private.
some of you guyz asked me why would i decide to accept a challenge from God, especially something like this. it seems obscured and something that is impossible to accomplish. yet i have to admit, when i first read about it and felt the Holy Spirit motivating me to do it, i felt the same way: obscured and impossible! first the numbers of "365 days" seems like a HUGE number! you know what, IT IS A HUGE NUMBER! knowing myself, i can barely keep my promise to do something within a week or even a month, yet alone, 365 DAYS! it was something out of my range and especially OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE! yet at the end, i decided to accept this challenge from God and this is how it began.
as you guyz noticed from my previous entry, i blogged about my new year's resolutions. yet i never post a follow-up entry on it. i never post a follow-up entry because i never really came up with a new years' resolution that seem like it was reasonable and possible. so instead of coming up with new year's resolution, i've decided to google blog in where new year's resolution are posted to brainstorm ideas. for some odd reasons, the first blog i clicked on was jaeson ma's blog. he was blogging about how he's going to challenge himself to the "365 Days of Love." basically, he's a pastor and he's always preaching and writing music about love. to him, he realized that LOVE means nothing to people unless he LIVES a LIFE of LOVE! so he took on this challenge, by showing random act of love to at least one person for each of day of the year. when i first read it, i was like "man, this is a huge challenge and yet crazy at the sametime." but somehow, i felt the Holy Spirit telling me to take on this challenge too. i was like, "ME!?!? no way i will be able to do it" and left it the way it is, and TRY not to think about it anymore. but God didn't give up on me.
for the next few days, weeks, months- God's been showing me signs to take on this challenge. signs of Love, the act of Love...everything about Love that you can think of was place in front of me. i just couldn't avoid it so i've decided to pray about but at the sametime, didn't really think much about it.
around january 2010, i was at my friend's place watching this taiwanese drama called "Hi, My Sweetheart" and thought Lee Wei (the 3rd main character) was super cute with his long hair (yet, all my friends thought he was ugly). i usually don't like to watch dramas/movies in where i have to read subtitles and not understand what i'm listening but "Hi, My Sweetheart" was an exception because Lee Wei was in it. I've decided to tell my sister in Christ/close friend, Li Wah to watch this drama because i know that she loves to watch taiwanese drama. she then told me that there was a better taiwanese drama called "Autumn's Concerto" and that i should watch it. at first, i was like whatever! what can be better than "Hi, My Sweetheart". she then told me she was going to send me the link where i could watch it on this website with subtitles and the whole episode without stopping. she send me the link couple of days later. i saw the link but didn't really put much thought into it because i still felt like "Hi, My Sweetheart" was better because of Lee Wei. a week later, i was super bored online so i've decided to check the drama "Autumn's Concerto" out. click on the link and then the first episode. right on the first episode, i saw Van Ness Wu. at first, i thought he looked familiar but couldn't recognize him because of his short hair. after watching the first episode, almost toward the end that i realized that it was Van Ness Wu from F4.
in the past, when F4 was popular, i actually liked Van Ness out of the other 3 and then Ken. all my friends thought that i was crazy and had bad taste in guyz because they all thought that Jerry and Vic were better looking. but throughout my life, when i feel pity for someone or when left to the side not as popular as the others, i tend to like them, find them attractive and something great about them aside from their looks (like Van Ness, he always tries to perform his best at everything he does). but with Van Ness, i just love his straight flawless hair in Meteor Garden (for some odd reason, when i was visiting my family in hk/shenzhen, china they were rebroadcasting the drama and i happen to come out of the shower complaining about my hair and saw his hair flying flawlessly like a model on tv) and because of that hair, i became his fan and that was the hair that i try to accomplish. only to find out later on from cousin, that they straighten his hair for hours. i became a fan of his but only to find out later on that he was partying, smoking and having girlfriends here and there that i stopped being his fan because i didn't want to look up to a person like that.
anyhow, after watching the first episode i decided to google "Van Ness Wu" to see how he was doing. only to find out that he became a Christian and changed so much. around this time, i've been struggling to grasp God's Love because it just so hard for me to comprehend how Loving of a God He can be, to send His Only Son to die for people like me/us for our sins. but just looking at Van Ness and how much he changed after realizing God's Love and accepting Him as His Personal LORD and Savior that i was able to understand God's Love. after clicking from links here and there about Van Ness Wu, i ended up looking at jaeson ma's blog again. at this moment, i know that i can't run away from God anymore. i prayed for awhile and i can feel God telling me, "Amy, why be scared when I'm with you. y avoid it? all you have to do is just take that first step! I will be there, I will never leave you" after that, on March 3, 2010 i decided to accept this challenge!
here is jaeson ma's blog: http://jaesonma.com/
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